HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY BRO~!!

had dinner together with my mother and bro.

had steamboat at of eunos corner.

(:

yeah.

i finally got my leave.

hees.

not going overseas.

staying in singapore.

hey its better den nth le lor!!

i hope i will make full use of my leave.

and next thus is my graduation ceremony le.

omg~

excited and looking forward.

hees.

just bcoz its my graduation ceremony.

i wana take alot of photos~!!

so i will be getting a digi cam soon.

glad tat i got candice working at those line.

got her to intro me.

and i will get it b4 GST increase to 7%~!!

lols.

so which means tat i will get it b4 sat!!

happie leh~

den my pocket will have a big hole.

hmm den my next aim.

SE hp?

guess handbag?

baby-G watch?

lalala~

see how ba.

=p

hmm.

somehow i felt better and happier aft i told him off.

but somehow i felt guilty too.

how?

now i hope i can carry on with my simple life.

bless me ba my friends~

(:

see see tats my new hairstyle.

hees.

how is it?

=p

back from macpherson kopitiam.

yup met up dolly for our frog.

tat we did not get to eat it ytd!!

lols.

we had egg oyster.

and dessert.

dolly had strawberry kisses.

and mine is mango milk ice.

well think we are crazy ba.

everyday meet up for supper.

omg~

weight going up liao.

but ppl say i slim down le leh.

despite all my supper.

lalala~

very sad and angry lor.

hais.

its alright tat u dont let me resign.

coz of u.

i rejected a job interview.

coz u say u can secure a higher post for me.

and now.

i wana take leave u oso dont allow.

wth is this man.

hey.

im a human too lor for u godness sake!

since i finish sch.

which is on 16feb.

i went for my cny holidays.

and start work till now.

it had been almost 5mths le.

working everyday with 1 off day per week.

and now i onli request to go off for 4 off days.

and u are making so much noise.

of coz i wana make a big fuss tat parkway star can on leave for 2weeks.

while mine is onli tat freaking 4days!!

u are lucky tat my genting trip is cancelled.

if not.

i bought the tix le

i seriously dont give a damn how u going to stop me from going.

even though u pay me twice of the tix money i oso dont care.

i need my rest.

i need my holiday.

poor suet~

poor me~

hais~

yup i told him off le.

hope i wont have anymore problems to add on my stressness le.

coz im damn stress lor.

argh~

-_-

back home.

we did not had our frog porridge.

coz candice say is too far.

-_-

ya den ended up we slack at the same old mac.

haas.

no frog porridge.

den we had 4 large fries.

omg~

jinlong did msg me on mon asking me abt uni entry stuffs.

i onli realise his msg until just now when i was deleting my inbox.

blur me~

sorry cheyenne.

other den sorry.

i dunno wat else to say le.

i think its better for u not to waste time on me ba.

on the other hand.

i dont think u are my type ba.

i noe these words are hurting.

im really sorry.

i dont wish to hurt u.

coz i noe the feeling of getting hurt is terrible.

im really SORRY~

i tot i had already let go.

but den i realise i have not.

i still cant let go of the past.

yup i noe im silly.

i noe im stubborn.

looking back at the past.

i still can cry for u.

hais.

i dont understand y guys can just change overnight.

i still can rmb the past clearly.

the first day i met u.

the song u sang at the pub.

the first msg u sent me.

they way u looked disappointed when u heard ppl wana noe me.

the way u hold my hands.

the way u looked aft holding my hand.

the words u said aft holding my hand.

the way u look shy.

the promises u made.

the words u said to me.

the effort u made to meet me up although u are busy with ur work.

hais.

all these are still so clear in my mind.

im here thinking so much.

but u on the other side?

i doubt so ba.

perhaps u already forget who am i?

thanks for ignoring my msg.

kinda disappointed ba.

tot we still can be friends.

tats wat u told me.

but..

well~

i still hope to hear from u soon.

(:

yup i may look alright.

but when im emo.

always they are there with me.

they are the ones tat always see me cry.

now~

i really dunno how to go on with my life.

OH MY GOD~!!

suet is going CRAZY soon ok~!!

yup tats me!!

im going crazy soon~!!

i guess i think i assume i predict tat cheyenne is going crazy abt le ba.

his craziness is unbelivable.

abit too over le ba.

making me feel so damn scary lor.

if i noe i dont online.

if i dont online den i wont sign on to msn.

if i nv sign on to msn den i wont see his nick.

if i nv see his nick den i wont go crazy.

and now im crazy le.

HOW?!

WAT CAN I DO?!

and.. dolly~

u reach home u off ur phone de ah.

y when i reach home i msg u but seems like u cant receive de.

well morning when u read the msg pls dont be shock.

but i noe u will be lah ah.

hais i dunno wat to do lah.

will talk abt it tonight ba~

yup today's my off day.

tot no plan with friends.

so i carry on with my hair saloon plan.

trimed my hair.

but not shorter.

coz im waiting for my hair to be longer and perm it~!!

hees.

yeah i REBOND my FRINGE le hor.

so.. jies~

esp IRIS but i noe she wont read this.

dont talk abt my fringe anymore liao hor.

lalala~

wana see how is it right.

no pic at this moment.

but i got one pic with dolly.

will show it to u all when she send me.

but i dunno when lah ah.

well its better for u all to meet me up at talk a look.

lols!

ya lor.

when ah?

i oso dunno.

plan ah.

one day come out for dinner.

to those who always mia de.

u noe who u are lah ah.

no need to name u all.

=p

miss u all lah.

u all nv miss me and the rest who turn up for gatherings de meh.

so bad de leh u all.

=(

hmm ya aft i went to saloon.

went to toa payoh to meet ayu.

tot of waiting for nina to finish work and see whether got plan to go out or not.

ended up she say she tired aft work.

so well ayu went home.

and i called up dolly for our fries session lor.

lols.

lisa rushing project.

candice at ecp.

so still the 2 of us lor.

chat till 12plus.

wana go off liao.

den.. raining cats and dogs.

sians.

waited awhile for cab.

den i reach home.

tats when i became crazy.

ya tats wat u read in the beginning.

-_-

ohh ya.

ganjiong called me wor~!!

so damn shock tat he will call me.

had not been contacting him and the rest of those guys since graduate.

ya those poly guys lor.

except for jinlong ba.

tat time was talking abt uni stuffs.

aft tat oso no contact liao.

ya.

when he call.

i ans.

he say 'hello ah lian ah'

i was like huh 'who are u'

den he say 'im ganjiong lah'

'ohh ganjiong ah si mi tai ji'

lols.

yup.

so long nv contact until they always call me ah lian i oso nearly forget liao.

haa.

chatted with him abt half an hr lor.

talk abt him.

talk abt me.

talk abt the rest of the guys lor.

well all of them not going to graduation.

so bored.

haas.

nvm i got my airen.

hee.

=p

ya talked abt those guys.

they are doing well now.

zhao - working for auntie like 'dog'.. so damn busy.. waiting for ns on sept

norman - ns liao. serving the nation

philip - found a job liao. quite a good job though

jason - reservist. serving the nation

edwin - ns too ba. not very sure

jinlong - happily with the gf. working at gf's dad's company. tats wat he told me previously.

well who else?

think tats the gang tat we always hang ard with ba.

yup take care guys.

hope to meet up soon.

(:

well meeting up my crazy 5 girls tonight for a catch up session.

but its always short of 1 de lah.

its always shanyun.

coz she's not the kind of having night life unlike the 4 of us.

yup its had been quite some time the 4 of us sit down and have a good chat le.

really looking forward for tonight's meet up.

(:

well im worried abt u too.

afterall u are my friend.

since i regard u as my friend.

i really hope tat u are alright.

take care okie?

(:

well.

work.

work.

work.

just came back supper with with nina and ayu.

ya later is my off day.

till now still no plans.

if not i think i might be going to saloon ba.

next week my graduation liao.

hee.

=p

planned to go saloon last monday de.

but went to airport to sent ahmad off.

den went back nyp to collect my graduation suit.

den went to see doctor as i was sick like nobody business.

lols.

den lastly met up for june's bdae.

busy dae.

haa.

hmm yup last fri met up dolly and friends at vivo to slack.

my emo session.

=x

den aft vivo dolly and me went for supper.

yummy frog porridge.

and my sudden cravings for oyster.

lols.

and we met 1 crazy woman tat made me SO FED UP.

haha.

den we walked home.

coz we at macpherson nia.

not tat really far.

its a form of exercise too.

aft eating.

wahaha~

well as i had decided wat i wana do next.

den..

faridah dont allow me resign.

sounds ridiculous right?

hais.

wat can i do?

hais.

y am i stressing over things tat im not suppose to stress abt.

y am i crying over stuffs tat im silly to cry for.

hais.

i dunno wat else i can say abt me.

im just finding trouble for myself?

perhaps ba.

just came back from hung ming bdae chalet.

yup real great~!!

meeting up with all those bartleyans.

he sae till like got ALOT of ppl.

ended up is oso tat few.

lols.

real fun.

the fun tat i cant get from elsewhere.

wee loon hung ming the joker the lamer.

the lame jokes we all used to have.

well if wana enjoys their lame jokes hafta enjoy it now.

if not when they go into ns.

aft ns i dont think the guys will be as lame as before le.

haha.

well lastly thanks loon for the ride back.

(:

first day went back to work aft my sickness.

still feel abit blur.

well mayb coz of my medicine made me drowsy.

hmm.

aft this sickness.

rested for 2 days.

the more i think i need a break.

when can i have my break?

when can i have my holidays?

im seriously tired.

mentally tired.

hais.

and one more thing.

cheyenne is making more stress day by day.

well i just take it easy.

i need time.

i really need more time.

i really cant make myself to believe in relationship.

basically all guys sux.

hmm mayb i cant 'one stick hit whole ship ppl' (DIRECT chinese translation. LOL)

but well wat to do.

all the guys i met are all the ones kena hit.

so how am i going to believe guys?

hmm so cheyenne if u think u can wait u just wait.

if not u can just let go.

(:

i miss my crazy five girls badly~!!

not only just meet dolly for a drink.

i wana meet dolly and lisa and candice and shanyun~!!

the laughter we had rocks the whole orchard road.

lols.

our endless topics of chattings.

really.

i miss u girls.

meet up soon k?

(:

hmm.

had been sick for a couple of days.

3 days of mc.

even though im sick.

i did not miss out my june san jie's bdae celebration.

(:

the remaining 2days i stayed at home and rest.

yup i missed out this year's crew outing.

lots of reasons behind it.

hais.

forget it.

its just a soeul garden.

wat he said to me is real or fake?

am i suppose to believe him?

yup i had somehow decided.

its time for me to have a new job.

new environment.

staying wherever i am dont seem like any bright future for me.

as for my stubborns thinkings i used to have.

i will try to overcome them.

wat am i going to be?

well yup.

persueing my childhood dream ba.

hee.

=p

wish me good luck k!!

phew~

damn long ever since i last blog.

anyone of u miss me?

yup i do miss all of u.

my crazy five girls.

my jies.

my poly gang.

nowadays i somehow only spend time and hang out with my work friends.

going out with them aft work can consider my everyday life already.

having dinner or supper.

chilling out.

chatting.

till late in the midnight.

dont give a damn wat time we are working the next day.

even though we only get to slp less den 4hrs almost everyday.

we oso dont care.

we already used to it liao.

haa.

anyway apit went ns liao.

so our outing aft work might not be as often as b4 i guess?

miss him.

as in miss his irritate-ness.

tats wat i told him b4 he going in.

poor ayu hafta miss him everyday.

well i still do meet up dolly and ken for a drink.

to relax myself.

not to think so much.

de-stress ba.

yup but not too much.

(:

miss the st james session with dolly.

coz jun's dad admited to hospital.

we all went to visit him and jun.

as when she called me she was crying over the phone till very jialat.

worried abt her.

when i say we all aft work go and see her.

she sae not need to be so trouble.

den she kena scold from me.

'friends trouble wat!!'

haa.

=p

but its true lah ah.

i really dunno how to put it in words.

hmm.

having someone to love you is great.

yup i believe everyones noes tat.

wat if at the same time more den one love you?

wat will the suituation be like?

y are they treating me so nice?

wat motives they got?

u see.

last week i got sore eyes.

my eyes got infection by contact lens.

so im not going to wear my lens for time being.

he (im) work overnight.

have not slp yet.

die die wana acc me see doctor when he get to noe tat my eyes go worst.

thanks im.

(:

and today i got sore throat.

i was talking on phone with customer and i cough till very jialat.

he (cheyenne) get someone to buy strepcells for me.

thanks cheyenne.

(:

to say the fact.

both of them claimed tat they like me.

but im's case is more jialat.

i got a feeling tat he like treating me as his gf.

i dont wish history will happen.

i told him sth.

he cried over the phone.

the way we contacting each other is lke under table de lor.

dont wana let ppl noe coz im sure there is ppl will gossip abt it.

i reallie dunno wat to do.

i think its better to hurt ppl rather den getting myself hurt.

but its reallie BAD to hurt ppl.

so how?

hais.

wat can i do?

and cheyenne's case is totally different.

he is like going round the whole store telling ppl.

he even call my workplace mother.

mother-in-law liao.

lols.

i still thinking y he ask me tat qns.

hmm well.

will continue on my next post.